Finally

Christmas is here.

I don't have to dread it one more day - it's here.

I'll get through this day i'm sure. I have family gatherings and friends coming to vacation in Western NC for a few days with me.....but I miss my Mom and my step father. More than any words could ever do justice to. If you haven't been through this I wish you never had to.

Merry Christmas to all!

It's coming on Christmas, they're cutting down trees....

I love that song. Always have. It's a sad one to me - wish I had a river I could skate away on.

I am happy to be seeing my brother and his family on Christmas day along with an Aunt and some friends but if I could I'd wish us right into 2009.

This is just too hard and I didn't expect it to be any other way.

Hoping everyone else has a lovely, happy, joyful, peaceful and healthy holiday season.

Life is never as it seems

Tonight I'm working on fact checking some charts for a meeting tomorrow. While I'm making sure the columns add up correctly so I don't embarass I turn on my TV for noise and find "You've Got Mail".

I love this movie.

It makes me sad - its too close to home right now. Meg Ryans character is missing her Mom at Christmas.

I am missing my Mom and Joe at Christmas...and every day.

I love you Mom and Joe and miss you very much. Merry Christmas.

Sick Sick Sick

I've caught the latest and greatest of cold floating around. Started with hoarse voice and slight cough for two days (accompanied by sore throat) and turned into a head cold last night.

Oh Joy - just in time for Christmas shopping.

And then there was 1.....

Yesterday at work on the two projects I've worked on all year was stopped. So I'm down to one project.

One full time project.

Not two.

Wow.

And a fine time was had by all....

My day was lovely - just lovely.

No other way to describe it.

I had lunch with 8 of the nicest people on the planet for my birthday and then went to a great art show I look forward to all year long. The lunch was divine and a wonderful, sweet (and oh so kind) friend made a cheese cake that we all ate - which was so yummy. Such a great day - and I was late as usual and no one expected otherwise :-). I got great gifts but the company was the winner this am. I can't believe how God has blessed me with such awesome friends. What a treat to be with them.

The art show was rocking but cold cold cold since it was outside. I got two new pictures from a photographer that I like a lot. Lots of beautiful things to inspire the creative process.

I was inspired.

What inspires you?

Almost done ......

I'm still writing thank you cards for flowers, food, donations etc which were given during my Moms funeral and afterwards. Until today I haven't been able to write them without crying.

Writing someone to thank them for the pound cake, the ham, the flowers, the building fund donation at church - just makes it more real.

And it was real enough for me.

But today seemed like the right time to tackle this and I have maybe another 15 to 20 left and I'll be done for now. My Mom would be happy - she never let things slide.

Tomorrow is a fun day - brunch at a great local restaurant for my birthday and an outdoor art show. I look forward to the Boylan Heights Art Walk every year and tomorrow will be cold and windy. Not sure how much outdoor art I can take outside with cold and windy. I'll just have to think warm thoughts :-).

The first step is the hardest

Today is the day I get off my butt and start this blog I've talked about for a long time. Yesterday was my birthday (for the 3 people out there that ...
Today is the day I get off my butt and start this blog I've talked about for a long time. Yesterday was my birthday (for the 3 people out there that didn't know) and I feel like today is a fresh start on a new year. A personal do-over.

This has been a hard year and a half for me. I've lost two people very close to me (my step father in Aug 07 and my mom is Sept 08). This blog will be partially about healing and recovering from those losses. I miss them so much. Even when I write about their deaths I can hardly believe they aren't here.

Today I'm cleaning house inside and out.

Isn't that what a fresh start is all about?